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Today, I was Stopped Dead in My Tracks

June 5, 2019, 1:00 PM

Today, I was stopped dead in my tracks.  

I am blessed to be a full time pastor of a small country church named Pleasant Hill Baptist Church, near the metropolis of Six Mile, SC.  

I make the 35 minute drive from my house up to the church at least 5 times a week, most weeks.  Every time I get out of the car to walk in the church, I glance at the church cemetery as I walk up the steps into the church. 


Today, I was stopped dead in my tracks while looking at that cemetery.  


As I looked at those gravesites, I was struck with a reality that we all know, but seldom like to think about...people die.  Those souls are gone from this earth.  Their lives our over.  

Unless Christ returns in our lifetime, everyone reading these words, will go the way of the grave.  Only what you have done for Christ will remain.  

The dash on those tombstones, between the year of their birth and the year of their death represented their life story.  


Then it hit much time do I have left?


Now, anyone who knows me at all knows that I don’t spend a lot of time worrying about my own inevitable death.  I know beyond any shadow of a doubt that when my time comes that I will be transported in a blink of an eye to the presence of my Savior!  

However on this day I stood frozen staring out at the grave yard and considered the prospect of the coming of the end of my life.  

While no man knows when their life will be over, I also know that the Bible says that our lives are but a vapor compared to eternity.  So, while I was not looking for answer to the question of how much time, I could not help but realize that my departure from this life is closer today that it was yesterday...time is running out. 


Then a second thought hit me.  What does my dash say about me? 


The second thought was not so much concerned with what people would think or say about me after I am gone, but instead prompted this third irresistible thought and desire:


I want more!


I don’t mean I want more time than what God is going to give me on this earth.  I know that I have an appointed amount of time that God has a will for me to have on this earth and I want no more or less.  I look forward to each day I have to live on this planet, along with the opportunities, and experiences that each day brings.  But, I also look forward to the time when I no longer have to deal with consequences and temptations of sin.  I look forward to one day living an eternal life in a perfect place with a perfect body.  I want to show her more that I am thankful every day that God had brought us together.  

What I do mean:

As a Husband I want more!  I want to experience more with my beautiful bride.  I want to make more of every opportunity and adventure we have together.  I want to have more passion for her.  I want to be more of an example of love and leadership.  I want to know her more.  I want her to know more just how much she means to me and how much our life together has meant to me.  I want her to know beyond any shadow of any doubt that I want to give her more from me.  

As a Father I want more.  I want to make the most of my time partnering with my wife to lead our children to become the Christ centered, God honoring, loving, compassionate, serving, adults they can possibly be.  I want to make more of the opportunities to teach, foster, lead, laugh, and enjoy the time with my children.  God has blessed me with 3 beautiful, wonderful children and I want them to know more how much they mean to me, and how much I love spending time with them.  

As a family member I want more.  As busy as my life can be, I don’t every want my parents, my brothers, my in-laws, my extended family to think I am to busy for them.  Too many times I feel like I come across that way or act that way and I don’t want that to be reality.  I want my parents to know how much I love them and that I am here for them and my brothers to know that I stand for them and care about them.  I care about their concerns, their battles, their struggles, as well as their victories.  I want my in-laws and extended family to know more how much I care about them and think of them, even if we don’t see each other all that often.  

As a Friend I want more.  I want more friends, I want to be more friendly, I want to be there more for my friends.  I want to be a help to my friends.  I want to be a blessing to my friends.  I want my friends to know more that I care about them.  I have been blessed with many memories of time spent with friends, but I want to make more of those memories.  I want to be more of what my friends need me to be as a friend.  

As a Pastor I want more.  I want to serve my church, and my community more.  I want to be more prepared to give and to feed the flock that God has entrusted me with.  I want to reach more people, not for my glory, but for the glory of God.  I want to find more ways to reach out and be used for God’s purposes.  I want to teach God’s people more about Him.  I want to teach them to reach out more for the glory of God.  I want to help them love more, serve more, and share the gospel more.  


As a Christian and Human being I want more.  It has been said that we have as much of God as we want.  Well I want more.  I realize that way to get more is by offering more of myself to Him.  

I want to pray more.  I want to read and study the Bible more.  I want to share the truth of the word of God more.  I want to understand more.  

I want to know more people.   To embrace more people.  To befriend more people.  To show more of God’s grace to more people.  

I want to smile more, release more joy, and demonstrate God’s love more.  

I want to lead more people to Him, and more people closer to Him.  

I want to be used more.  I want to love Him more.  I want to serve Him more.  

I want to know His love for me more.  


While I want more...I also want to be satisfied by God and God alone.  I want what He wants for me and for others.  I want His will to be done.  


While I want to be satisfied with what He has for me...I believe that He wants more for me.  


Ephesians 3:20 says:  “Now unto him that is able to do exceedingly abundantly above all that we ask or think, according to the power that workers in us,”


God can do more than we can even think to ask...


There is one more thing I want: I want to know...


In this life, before it is over, what is it you want?  Are you ready for the end?  You can be.  I would love the chance to share with you more.